Last Sunday (March 3) I mentioned that I hope to have some good news to share with you soon. Well…
No good news (at least not yet).
We did travel to Florida on Sunday and Monday.
We did meet a baby girl that was born on Monday.
We did spend quality time with the birth mother and her family.
We did not come home with a baby girl :(
The birth mother, at the last second, decided she couldn’t sign off and decided to parent the baby. Needless to say my wife and I were devastated. I told people before we left that nothing was final yet; that the birth mother still could change her mind. I knew this, but a large part of me still fully expected to come home with a baby girl. I think a lot of people did.
The drive home from Florida was extremely long.
Lots of tears were shed.
Lots of questions were asked.
Lots of quiet moments were experienced.
But through it all, the one thing that gave and continues to give my wife and I hope and strength is the love and grace of our awesome God. We have seen this through the love of our family and friends. We have heard this through scripture and prayer. We have felt this in the warm embrace of a hug. God is good…all the time…even though we do experience heartache from time to time.
I don’t blame God for any of this. I am not angry with God for the heartache my wife and I are experiencing. Rather…I am joyful that we are not going through this alone. We know that God will bring healing…AND…that God will use this to bring Him glory. And THAT is exciting.
My hope and prayer is that I can grow stronger through this experience so I can better help people who are grieving in any way. I have experienced heartache and grieving before but nothing like this.
I still believe there is a child out there…somewhere…waiting for us.
I still believe that I will be a father someday. So in the mean time we will move forward and continue to pursue our dream to be parents someday. We pray for the birth mother as she parents this little baby girl. We pray for healing and wisdom. We pray for strength. Satan will not use this to drive a wedge between me and God.
And…hopefully, soon, I will have good news to share with you. Thank you for your love, prayers and support.
Praise be to God!
The pastor -|—